an indirect lesson for me..

as I've been expecting,, the day today was quite a hectic day for me and my comrade Miss Anis.. hehe..

i don't wanta tell about the registration day and all sorts of things that happens and obviously not a rare phenomena to everybody as far as registration day is concern.. but here,, i have this kind of feeling which i myself feel,, that,,,i should have been realised about this long time ago,,,but,,,it turned out that i've just realised it today,, at this very moment of the day.......this evening..at this hour!

know what?????????

i realised that i'm being such a not-thankful-person.. well,,,,as i wrote it word by word,,,, it seems that i really mean it.. deep inside my heart.....and plus,,i don't know whether it is the right word or not..hahaha...booo!!

okay back to the point...

there are some people who has not yet discovered how fortunate their life are even when he/she is living within the scope of the fortune itself..which sometimes is far too good compared to others....see the point? and i've to admit that i'm among that not-thankful-person...because????

okay,,when i was involved in the registration day today,, as if Allah wants to show me something,,hidden beneath the bustling moment for me,,,,this very day...........I AM NOT BEING THANKFUL!

okay know why? because i've been wanting,,desperately before,, and even now questioning,,regretting why am i being here.....HERE IN THIS IPKB! why and why......why......
the KPLIans and the JQFians who registered today,,has come with quite a satisfying answer,,,,indirectly....for me..............just let the answers left hidden here in this post....

life wasn't that good.....as we had been wanting,,,right? because the almighty had already planned something better,,,far more better than what we have been expecting.......

so,,it is up to us...to accept it,,as what had been fated or..just to be among the -not-thankful-person like i did....

i know He know what i mean...and i could not hide anything for Him,,i'm writing it here...knowing that He knows this too......hoping that He'll forgive my dumbness......SYUKUR YA RABBI..............MOHON AMPUN PADAMU ATAS KEKHILAFAN YANG SELAMA INI TERJADI.....SESUNGGUHNYA,, AKU HAMBAMU YANG LEMAH....amin..

that's all......thank you for reading..i'm just sharing.........what i feel..(^^,)