Tuesday, September 11, 2018

E day

Well, wasnt really ready for what is supposed to be ready but im thankful.

It was a hard decision made. The ceremony was held on Sunday but the final decision was made only on Friday. Phew...

Everything went well, but I really was nervous that I almost had my heart beating out of its normal rhythm.

Above all, I hope I can retain this feeling although it is soooo confusing.. soo sudden and sooo new to me...

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Gula Melaka

Terkadang dalam rindu yang menyapa lembut...ada hati yang tersentuh

Kisah ini serupa dengan kisah mereka yang menangisi masa lalu kenangan dengan yang sudah tiada..

Dulu..bila ibu nak buat buah melaka, aku la tukang kerat gulanya.bila dah kukerat, datangla si tangan panjang sambar beberapa potong.

Pernah dipesannya kepada ibu mintak dibelikan gula melaka hanya untuk dimakan sebagai snek.. minat betul dia..

Kini,semuanya tinggal kenangan..tiada lagi tangan panjang mengambil gula yang kupotong, tiada siapa lagi ingin kumarah... dan tiada lagi kawan berebut buah melaka. Semuanya tinggal kenangan....

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

I got u

Alhamdulillah, dah dpt smula tab yang sudah lama kutinggalkan.
Gayanya seperti kekok pula menulis dengan keypad yang besar dan skrin yg lebar,

Namun demikian, interface yang ada sudah cukup buat hati ini menangis semula. Kerana hanya dia yang tahu bagaimana menbuat tema yang ada seperti sekarang.

Maka aku harap, ia akan elok sampailah bila2.

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Just go

I guess Allah is just testing me with another test to see whether I really pass the previous one or not...

And for this time around,I give up.

I never ever been such a disgrace to myself begging for a second chance, I did this time around because I know the feeling of being a left out person, I know the tense of having to keep everything to just yourself.. I just wanted to help.. 

But I failed because of the reason I can't even help it. I can't help the fact that I can't change my history, what and how I led my previous timeline. I just cant do anything with that...

So I guess this is it, stopped disgracing myself, I put a distance and I move on. This time around, whoever is meant to stay just stay, and whoever just happened to be crossing the my timeline will just pass and be gone. I won't ask them to stay. That's the game.

So, I bid farewell to you,I hope you are happy as I am trying really hard here to even cherish my own life..

Thursday, July 6, 2017


I started to realise that I'm starting to forget how to live that very moment when I realise that I lost u.

That raya wasn't a raya for us. It became the day we lost ourselves remembering the dearest love whom we had lost. The suffer is real but I know we are not the only one to suffer the same torment.

None of us had new clothes for the raya, I bought some chips just for the sake of serving the visitors. That raya feels nothing more than just an ordinary day.

How I wish I captured more lovely moments to keep as mementos of us, and how I even wish I could say more lovely words to u that last raya. How I wish I could....

But I keep everything tight and I hope He takes care of u better there.

Saturday, June 10, 2017

Another mundane trip

I went to Kenanga Mall today. Wasn't that much of a thrill. Were supposed to buy a few things for raya but there wasn't much of mood.

Turn out I didn't buy anything but a tudung just for the sake of at least I bought something here.

We are still in the month of Ramadan, still having a hard time trying to accept the fact that Ame is no longer here with us in such a month with yet another celebration to come is really a hard thing to do.

Turning over a new page is hard when u are still reading the current page. Yeah, I guess that sums it up but there's no way I could ever do this.

So I guess, there's no Raya this year.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Last program of the month

It's a wrap. Three programmes consecutively in a month!

Wasn't that hard if u have a great teammates with great help from Allah too.

So our HM is already in his retirement live starting from today. He was happy I can see it, it was a sorrowful moment having to let go of a wonderful head of the school but life has to go on..

Selamat bersara guru besar..