HATE!!!

yesterday was a bit tensed-up day for me....

wasn't a great start for a very new, not even a teacher of me...

with all these 3 friends of mine, were are assigned to deal with the hardcore students, those with the attendance almost 0 a month.. yes,, we are the black sheep, the call girl for the students like those, real hateful, a bunch of helpless students, 

they can listen well to our advice, they can even respond to us like we need them to, about telling the problems and the reason of why not coming to school. but i hate the reason so much that i could smack them hard on the face if they'd dare say anything like that. 

malas cikgu~

ngantuk~

these are some of the reasons of not coming to school.. i hate them so much that i hate the one spitting out those useless reasons.. takde mase depan punya budak.... i hate those people that assigned us with the task, those teachers that are involved in teaching them. well, i hate this school of course!

since i've lost the most precious student, having to deal with the attention seekers, i've turned into such a pathetic figure, having to persuade myself into going to school, having to wake up early in the morning, writing the RPH and what not, a teacher should be...

i hate this profession

mom said, well, if you have done something to help them and it doesn't turn the way you want it to, so, be it, it may be that they are fated to be like they are now...

and, this is supported though, in the Quran, where there, stated that Allah takkan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum itu melainkan mereka cuba mengubah nasib mereka sendiri...

lebih kuranglah...ayat apa, aku tak ingat...

p/s: ups and downs of this profession...